Just got back from Prefect Camp. I turned on my phone and got bombarded with smses, which was very scary. Most of them relating to very urgent matters & work. I got SMP, SS project and Camp tomorrow. So much for being all inspired after camp to do something more. It sometimes feels like reality is not that kind. Life just keeps getting harder, but since when was it easy. Its a matter of picking yourself up and moving, against the current that threatens to push you back even more. Things seem so superficial at times and I honestly do not know what to do about it. I ask myself over and over again, what IS the point? Now I am scared, the sec4s are gone. It is suddenly like we are all alone and the big question is: What if we fail? Its not the fear of failing, its the fear of dissapointment. Not living up to standard and letting everyone down. That is what I fear. The big let down. It feels like its the limit and I cant push myself anymore. I sound like a stupid over achiever that wants everything in life :/ Seriously you people make me feel bad when I emo. So I shall stop blogging about crappy depressing stuff. Becky will be happy and stop whinning for now on until a certain period when I choose that I will start. Which will be in the near future. Next week is going to be one heckload busy week. See me fall down and die.
Faith Leong is the sweetest Aunty alive, she made my day. Yes, I love you Faith (: